rendezvous

RAGE

2012-02-09T00:40:00.003+08:00

10 shots of flaming lambo, trippin over concrete pavement, regurgitating my insides and yet still not half the asshole you are. So how do I express this massive influx of rage while still keeping myself composed? To be honest, I've gotten sick and tired of being sick and tired of their attitude. Each one of them with no exception. Eversince I've moved into the new dorm, I was quite psyched to finally be living in a proper space with a decent pantry. By right, responsibility and hygiene is no longer an issue well obviously because we are all FUCKING OLD. We are not a bunch of 7 year old who needs to be scold incessantly about washing our hands after shitting. But nonono, I just had to live along with these ILLITERATE IGNORAMUS!! Must I explain to all of you that the kitchen is where you put your food not your rubbish you fucking tramp. They must all be stupid, that is the only reason why they would put leftover foods, empty food wrappers, rotten food with maggots at the kitchen sink. Why?! Why!? Are you even fucking humans? Yeah yeah ya'll look so "appropriate cum retardo" on the outside but incredibly dumb on the inside. Now before ya'll wanna say "STOP WHINING OLD BITCH AND CLEAN THAT SHIT UP" oh already did honey. The only sane people in my house, roomie and I being the exceptionally intellectual human that we are; bought scouring powder, scotch brite sponges and latex gloves to clean their shit up for fuck sakes. Not more than 3 hours later, their half eaten brain decided its time to wash their trash inside the sink again. If looks could kill, they would all be (insert nasty word) by now.

Pretty sure there will be a continuation to this post.

lifetime supply

2012-02-07T21:11:00.003+08:00

I get a few people asking me if the bb1m voucher was here to stay or if it was gonna be distributed again next year. I doubt it. It's like giving candy to someone just to please them, with a catch at the end- votes! Politics, I couldn't care less.
So I was thinking how to spend the 200 voucher I got. Since I could get most of the books at our library why should I have the need to buy one? For the holiday, I went to Ipoh to check out some movies but it was all fully booked so screw that. Then my boyfriend wanted to use up his vouchers that day hence the decision to splurge at Popular.

I bought 2 novels worth about 4o bucks each. A magazine worth 5 bucks each and spent 9 bucks on this mechanical pencil. 4 packets of 2B pencil leads, liquid papers and some erasers. Basically I got a lifetime supply of school stuff lol I still have another 100 but haven't really figured out what else I should do with it. Maybe I'll keep it till the day it expires.

Stuck

2012-02-05T00:57:00.003+08:00

What a way to end my Saturday night having the car broke down in the middle of a parking lot at midnight. Glad thing the area wasn't deserted and there were 5 of us or it would be terrifying to imagine the possibilities! All hopes were lost when my boyfriend tried to start the engine continuously but all it made was a purring sound that was slowly dying. We decided to manually move the car out of the parking lot so we could at least give it a push and maybe the engine would work. Sadly, a manpower of 3 girls and 2 guys didn't suffice. Car just would not start. We googled, wiki-ed and called friends to help us. But the closest friends was in UTP. Which is 45 minutes away. Soon the car started to smell like something was roasting inside. Being girls, we just complained about it and waited till the owner of the car came while the boys kept checking the engine..not knowing if they really do know what was going on or was it just for show. HAHA I joke.. the boys were helpful too. An hour passed when suddenly, a dark figure was walking towards the dim lit trolley area. It was someone we knew! Luckily he was there along with 3. They diagnosed the car and said.. " Let's push this. Harder" .. So they did and it worked!!! In the end, all it took was to push harder. Ahh underneath all that chaos, it was a pretty funny moment to remember. On a side note, it was a proven life lesson too. When things don't go your way, never give up that "way of doing"..you just don't know how close you are to succeeding.

the view

2012-02-04T00:51:00.005+08:00

Don't know about you but when it comes to choosing a room to stay, I'm quite picky about what I see outside the window. I need my everyday viewing to be easy on the eyes and pleasurable. Fortunately I've been quite lucky...the view from my room is always really nice and soothing to the eyes. Sometimes I pity those having window views of another blocks of building. Even worse, a blank wall.

When I first entered, this was my view from the top floor. UTP looks beautiful as dusk falls rapidly :)

...but it looks more majestic as the next day dawned so brightly!

But I had to move on the second half of the year.
Here's a picture of my view since I moved here in May. Still nice altho not as nice as the sunset scenery I get to see everyday before..

This picture here is the view outside my block. The block on the opposite are the boys block. BLOCK. Shit why are there so much blo...ck.

UTP may suck here and there, but the scenery ain't bad at all :)
Just a random post..like I said, it is time to rekindle the spirit to blog!

into the wild

2012-02-04T00:02:00.007+08:00

The day I landed in KK, it was already my best friend's last day here. If I wasn't able to see her now, it would be months or even years till we get to meet each other again. Even though she's only staying in Cheras which is a few hours of bus ride from Ipoh, it still seems impossible to just pick a day and hang out. All hopes to meet and catch up always ends up with a rain check. Luckily we managed, along with two of my other girls. Drey is here for her internship and it's already been more than year since we last met during the road trip to Ranau and now that I get to see all of them again, is truly awesome!

We met at Sandra's family chalet in the deep secluded part of Pogunon. Where the river water is cold and crystal clear. A place un-urbanized.

Pictures from dear Elsie :)

Reunited! Can't believe we're all turning 22 years old this year.

..yet as cliche as it sounds, I still feel like the girl who tried to live her dreams out whilst battling sappy drama in highschool *ahem

Sandra, Drey & Elsie living their teenage years. HAHA I joke.. we are still considered teenagers right?

Modoit's Chalet. This looks so nice..being right in the heart of nature.

Upon looking at this photo, it reminded me that it has been 5 years since high school. Yet the friendship we have still blooms every year. You guys are truly soul sisters to me :) Appreciate all the love given. Muahhhh!

Bottom picture taken in 2008 at the same location!

Walking on sunshine

2012-02-03T17:08:00.006+08:00

I spent my short holidays basking in the glorious sun as I embraced the wonders of Borneo's greatest getaway with good company. For a week, the weather was absolutely heaven. Yes it is smashing hot but at least it didn't rain. And what can we do when it rains? Nothing. Well if you're Asian, you know what to do when it rains. FAST GRAB SOMETHING AND COVER YO HEADS!

Ok I'm starting to digress so I'll just post up pictures.

Took off about 10am from Jesselton Point, KK. Skies so blue even the water sparkles.

Arrived at Pulau Sapi Sabah! It took us only about 15 minutes of boat ride from the jetty to the island. Boat ride was prolly about RM15 return. We decided to go to Pulau Sapi was because it was the least famous. Manukan and Mamutik had way too many tourist it was overwhelming.
As you can see, there isn't much people here. Maybe cos this island is a tad bit smaller compared to the rest of the islands.

Small or not, the island served its purpose. Such breathtaking scenery this is!

Having fun under the sun doesn't mean you can simply neglect the harmful effects of it. So I got overboard with sun creams and sunblocks I could almost pass as a mime. It was almost too theatrical looking LOL

My 2 beautiful ladies, Drey & Elsie soaking up the fun as the Canon camera becomes priceless for a second. I put it on top of some stone not giving a shit if it fell to the sand. But thank God it didn't.

Mark took a warmly picture of us all :)

Drey & I.

A beautiful photo to end this post.

I'd take more pictures when we were snorkeling, banana boat riding but I don't bring along my camera when I go in the sea. So yeah.

hopes

2012-02-02T23:54:00.001+08:00

It's been a while since I last gave a fuck on this blog. Told myself time and time again that I'll make an effort to change the ever mundane vibe I get every time I get on here. Glad to say that I did a mini face lift and did some super complex coding to do it. OK not, just got it somewhere free online. So that's it. It took me no longer than 30 minutes till my excitement just poofed out in another milkyway. Oh well~

I'll be home for Christmas

2011-12-18T13:40:00.002+08:00

I am dreaming tonight of a place I love
Even more than I usually do
And although I know it's a long road back
I promise you

I'll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents on the tree

Christmas Eve will find you
Where the love light gleams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light gleams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

If only in my dreams..

BUT MY DREAM IS COMING TRUE!

things that annoy me #2

2011-12-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

So there's this sudden uproar that's been bugging the entire campus these days. A so called effort to eradicate the social problem that they allegedly believe is going haywire. The curfew goes something like this, students are being restrained from having their freedom to be anywhere they want after midnight. So basically the "higher" authority wants us to stay put in our rooms and if God forbid we are to be found roaming around the campus area after 1 in the morning, we'd get a fine. What the fuckety fuck is this? First of all, we are not a bunch of boarding school kids ya'll can just instruct us to not go anywhere after midnight. That's the luxury of being in a private university am I not right? The fact that we could go out and have a fucking midnight supper or just go to the cafe and just sit or fcking talk to the ceiling or whatever and not be questioned why. If they really think that locking us up in our rooms is going to sweep all problems under the rag well think harder. If the girls and guys wants to talk after midnight, let them talk what more could there be? They wanna spend some romantic cozy moment together at the bench underneath the lamp post, let them have that romantic moment. It's not like their gonna be making babies right after the lights goes off. Okay fine, even if that was possible that's their own godamn problem. Don't drag the whole campus cos it ain't fair. Truthly I'm not even a fan of staying up late, hanging out till the wee hours and driving off to the city but I still felt a part of my freedom is being taken away. This "putting things into consideration" with student representatives is fine, but why must those religious congregation be involved? Such total nonsense. We'll see how this plays out. But for now, just to piss those people off..I'mma step out from my room and prance around the opposite block. Whatcha gonna do about that?

things that annoy me

2011-12-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

Lately, everything around here seems to enrage me. If not because of people who literally have zero brains, its about people who thinks with their knee. Oh wait a minute, that is the same thing, same shit. First of all, I don't get how some people can still be closed minded at this century. Being present in this era is supposed to make us more liberal in all issues whatever that may be. We're supposed to be in that generation where discrimination and prejudice are a thing of the past. There is no race who are more inferior and superior to another race no matter what issues you put on the table. Honestly, it's embarassing to have known someone who is obsessed with being a colour and treating people with no equality. You, have no right to insult someone by how they look let alone on what race they belong. It doesn't give you the right to humiliate others just because you thought that was funny. Every sneering comments you make about this person only reflects your own true personality. You are racist, disgusting and miserable. You take alot of shitty people around with you, joining in the bandwagon full of idiots. Yeah, I know everyone talks alot of shit about most people. But we only talk shit when the person did something bad to us. That's only human nature to defend ourselves by attacking back. But this, this! This person for as much as I know has never done anything that would make the public justify your acts towards this person. You may not know it, but you and your miserable posse are clear example that people still proves to be shallow and narrow minded. You preach day and again about wanting equality of treatments yet you're giving the total opposite. It is sickening for me to see you verbally harassing someone whose eyes shows deep sadness and loneliness. I might be wrong, that person might just probably be some kind of lunatic. But I actually engaged in a conversation. And I honestly do not understand why people would avoid this person. I hope one day, you'll get off your high horse and start thinking with your brains. As far as I can see, you're the one busy being a colour while every other person out there are color blind.

The most wonderful time of the year

2011-12-04T16:21:00.002+08:00

It is finally the fourth day of December!!! To me, its without a doubt the most anticipated month of the year, cos it signifies a lot of wonderful things that's just waiting to unravel. Not only is it the last few days of the year, it's the time where holidays are just at every corner, I mean how sweet is that? Just 21 more days till Christmas Day and 28 days to a brand New Year! Another year has passed me by leaving me with all the bitter sweet memories. Time however, still never cease to amaze me.

2011 has taught me to be stronger in life. It taught me that friends will come and go as they like but family will never leave your side. They'll be there through good and bad times. It taught me that old friends won't always have your back but the new one's are starting to stick around more making the "leaving so far away from home" sadness ain't so bad after all. It also never stopped reminding me how grateful I am to have a loving boyfriend cum-best friend by my side every single day. Being side by side with him throughout the whole year in UTP really didn't felt like I was at the wrong place. He made everything better here. Sleep becomes easy, food taste better and the weekends are never dull. He just brings out the colour to my lack luster life, and in 28 days he turns 21 :) I'll be waiting for that super magical day!

2011, introduced me to a whole new life too. Finally stayed at a hostel longer than 2 weeks :P Had two KK-ians as roomate which is always a plus especially being in this part of the country. Met a group of awesome friends who aren't just pretty on the outside but also beautiful on the inside too. I can actually see us in 5 years time, all still together going to the same destination. Tears are shed and laughter all around this year are all normal I guess. Jealousy, hatred and disappointment aren't permanent. It's just there to remind us that as humans, we're allowed to feel that way.

Oh well, before the post turns sappy, I think I've written enough for today. Test 2 is coming up and so are final assignments, projects and presentation. I got a lot to cover before I get to enjoy these few days of 2011!!

breakeven

2011-11-15T21:52:00.003+08:00

I found an old blog of mine that was created for private intentions 2 years ago. I only managed to write a few posts back there, but all that there was were pretty intense. Pretty much written with anger,frustration,rejection and broken promises. Love was a whirlwind matter back then but I stood still knowing what it all meant even before it was laid on the table. One thing that I found was that, I was blunt, real and blatantly expressing myself without worrying prying eyes lurking around. Why can't I be bold and let it all out anymore? What am I afraid of? Or rather who? Nobody can give me the answer I need yet I look around searching for the unsearchable. When must I realize that if words spoken from my mouth are capable of inflicting pain to a certain someone, I should go on regardless. I can be excused from committing another blunder. I mean,if you can, why can't I?

a week to roll

2011-11-03T23:38:00.004+08:00

Yyyyahhhhooomaaaigoosshhhhh

Do you know why I'm so hyped? I am having a one week holiday!!! ONE WEEK 7 DAYS that is the equivalent to our semester break, mind you. As ya'll know very well I diss the UTP holidays quite alot cos the free time that we have can't be considered as semester break. And don't get me going on the 2 days mid semester break. Like what the shit right? Anywho, won't be coming home cos well going home means spending a fortune. And no I don't have a fortune right now so best to stay put in little Tronoh for a little while.

This week was too hectic for me. Literally had incessant classes from 8 to 5 and quizzes,test and more test and oh ya, test! What really keeps me going through the day is the thought that I'll be over done with my very first year in UTP. I may not be there yet but I'm closer than I was yesterday. It all takes a little push from the people that matters to you. Surround yourself with people who are willing to reach the same exact destination. That little light over the tunnel. Imagine being at the end of the line side by side with that people. You have the choice to choose your finish line. And I am glad as hell that I am surrounded by a people who not only devours success but also values life dearly. The thought of us grabbing hold of that future, is what makes me get up and jump in the shower every frickin morning :D

Yyeahh gon be' kick starting the week with a trip that I'll be having with the Society of Petroleum Engineers to KLCC. Uber excited since this will be my virgin visit to the towers! Balik2 Suria KLCC, mana tahan kan? Ohh and oh my family is coming over the weekend. I should remind them to tapao me chungkian from home.

Tata now and draw a smile on your faces, it never hurts to smile.

a piece of Cameron

2011-10-27T17:33:00.012+08:00

One fine day, a road trip to Cameron was blurted out. I, the-sucker-for-all-kinds-of road-trips is more than gladly to be saying yesssss to this short yet full of wondrous experience. Take me anywhere adventurous, I will be there! Just as to justify myself,this here is my most hyped up self which lets me be totally willing to tryout whatever that comes in my way. As the saying goes, our life is like the roller coaster. You can either be godamn scared and cling to your life or be the one that puts yo hands up in the air screaming your lungs and enjoyin all the rush and thrill. See, got improvement anot? I am so damn motivating and hippy like shit right? Hahaha And that is how I ended up in Cameron with love and my awesome girlfriends ♥

But seriously tho', I am on a journey to self lovin. Let me just enjoy my youth, so come along if you wish. No strings attached :)

...aaand back to the point! No more straying away I promise.

Hours later.....A tiring 2 hour drive but a worthwhile destination eventually. I don't usually get motion sickness but that day felt like rolling upside down like your head just decided to roll and ball. Fak thatshit thus I slept halfway through. But I still managed to stay awake and capture the famous road sign!

Checked in at Cameronian Inn Tanah Rata. We decided to stay at a resthouse cos well we came here to not be curled up in a room. We were out most of the time so it was more like a place to keep the bag and chill for a minute or two before heading out again.

aand look!! A toy poodle in the window! It was seriously peeping us through the window and once I spotted that little cutesy I was in love..sadly he kinda got scared and went back inside :(

If you're at Cameron, do not miss the Scones and the Apple Pie. One of the best scones I had was in Lord's Cafe. It was yummmerrsss but my favourite butter cream scones were out of stock. Its funny knowing that scones are an English quick bread which is really popular in UK, but while I was in London since 2008, never once did I have or heard of scones. Hahah

Passed by this beautiful European mansion that was built during the colonial era which has now turned into a hotel. The Smokehouse Hotel was so lovely so I'm guessing it's pretty expensive to stay here. Surrounded by beautiful flowers,the cold chilly breeze and the warmth ambiance gave me sweet angelic chills. To top the view off, a white Benz was complimenting the whole vibe :p

This view looks like something from a dream. Doesn't it?

My boyfriend is very supportive. Told him to stand near the flowers so I can take a pretty picture of him. And he did it with no persistent hesitation and did it with a smile sumore :)

Dusk came too soon so we all had steamboat for dinner! The night begun to be very cold but luckily, we could warm ourselves with warm delicious foood. Charcoal Steamboat is tha bomb. Screw heater lol

After dinner, we were looking for a place to chill and dance. But there weren't any around so we chilled for a while at the pub. It was a relaxing-laid back pub. Filled mostly tourist with their beers. So we ordered a draft of beer and some cocktails for us ladies. Our mission to get tipsy failed!! But fret not, we still gots Halloween..true anot?! Bahahha

The Chinese Trio!

While in Cameron. People have said that we look like Thai, Indonesian and that Chia Wei and Rozen looked Singaporean.
Booyeah talk about blending in.

After a glass of beer and glass of tequila sunrise+screwdriver+bailey we were still composed as ever. Hardcore drinker ok lol no

We didn't wanted the night to end so swiftly but the car was empty on fuel for almost an hour and there were only 2 gas station which to our luck, were closed and was out of fuel. Seriously devastated......

Came back around midnite and was well prepared to sight see the next morning! Cameronian Inn provided us with breakfast altho it was expensive. RM7 for some eggs but we just had to try the scones once more. The morning after, we went to the park just behind the house and it was a nice place for picture taking!

We did the jumping pose like a million times. Who knew jumping would be so much fun. Hahha

LOOK!! The poodle went out and joined us! And the expression we had is confusing to me still. Chia Wei looked like she never saw a dog. I look scared of that dog. And Rozen just looked like she wanted to kidnap the dog and bring back UTP. Hahahha :D

Next up!
STRAWBERRY FARMMMM!!!

The most anticipated place...

It was only a mere 2km but took quite a while to reach becos of the narrow roads and congestion. There were so many cars and the roads are just too small.

See, we could literally just pick leaves along the way and have a bag full of it. Cars had to cramped up to the sides to let other cars pass by.

Breathtaking view of the Cameron Terrain from the BOH Tea Platform Cafe.

#cubabayangkan every morning wake up to this view?
A cup of hot tea and some butter scones to melt the heart.

The girls & moi

Our very own talented artist imported directly from Korea. Ohyeah.

Our next top model gracing every shot with her fab style :)

and yours truly, geeky ol gurl :D

Left Cameron with a big heart filled with joy,laughter and love :)
We all took a piece of cameron with us. Thanks for wonderful memorable experience guys mmuahx!!

Back to Ipoh

dazed

2011-10-19T22:41:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to be doing some kind of work in Excel. Something to do with tableu,Gaussian method or something like that but can't recall how to do it exactly. Then a stain had to appear on the screen which then forced me to take out the wet wipes,wiped it off then eventually proceed to do all the nonsensical shit...I'm so helpless and redundant that I can't fathom how could I possibly be that easily distracted. Not to mention dealing with firstworldproblems. You see, I'm on a diet. Well,so called diet. My dinner consist of cereal and milk. But the ass refuses to follow the command thus having to eat the cereal by itself. How sad and dispirited was I to be having dry cereal for dinner. And that people, is how sad my life can be at 11pm at nite.

change is good

2011-10-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

I've made a lot of promises and bullshits over the years. One of it was that I was gonna start eating healthy. And by healthy I don't mean cutting off carbs completely cos' that just ain't gonna be possible. But I promise that I would get back in shape no matter what it takes. It'll happen someday and I think that day has finally came.....at least for now.

UTP Convo 11

2011-10-17T23:27:00.006+08:00

Last week I had my first experience to UTP Convo Fair!! The fair part was slightly entertaining although I find the actual event of the convo quite long and tiresome. Unless of course I was the one graduating. I've attended both my sibling's convo in London and both were really long winded so to be honest to the man who gives out the scroll throughout the event, I SALUTE. Standing up there for quite a long time is hard work bruh'. Anyway, since this is my virgin convo, with all that excitement we went to the fair on the first day! I wasn't expecting much cos' from what I've been told, it was so much better and bigger the year before.

Chia Wei, Rozen & moi :)

The only performance I stayed to watch. Went back afterwards..

Michaelians in UTP!
Debbie,Edgar and Mark.
Another year to go for Debb and 2 years more to go for my Lovey.

Civil buddies.

The boys trying to perfect their hat throwing.

3 more years till I get to throw my own graduation hat. Till then I'mma enjoy life in Tronoh and make beautiful memories with good company. To start off, I'll be heading off to Cameron Highlands for a road trip with my boyfriend and my girls soon :)

so.

2011-10-17T00:04:00.002+08:00

So, hypothetically speaking. What if someone said your boyfriend had a different looking girlfriend. By different I meant, not you. What does that make you then, ya know hypothetically speaking.

I suggest

2011-10-14T15:06:00.005+08:00

Approaching a certain numerical stage in life somehow possesses me into thinking that I should have already done most of the stuff in my bucket list. Here I am, a 21 year old who still can't figure out what needs to be done. Feels like forever since I've done something productive and majestic. Don't I have some kind of free pass of temporary freedom at this part of my life? Head off to some rocking head banging parties or go skinny dipping in the dark or embark on a teen driven passion road trip across the country with a convertible?? I mean Katy Perry literally lists them all down for us. Ugh, I am bored. Need people who'll jump in the bandwagon bound to the BEST TIME OF YER LIFE. Ain't no one be interrupting my groove. Whose in?

Techno Homies

2011-10-10T20:38:00.001+08:00

Had our first white day ever!!
IBIS JAN 2011

Picture taken from Fateen :)

By the hour..

2011-09-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

Today was mega tiring. Was so damn busy converting oxygen to carbon dioxide; as tumblr would propose. And having my 3rd paper with Gamelan Test afterwards.

A useless photo booth pic to light up my own day.

Oh

2011-09-05T20:40:00.003+08:00

My social network timeline, if not inundated with post about getting back home, it's about Smurfs and Smurfs or being dead lazy to study. So should I jump in the bandwagon? Question is, which?

5 DAYS TILL I'M BACK HOME!!!!!!
OMGGG CANNOT STUDY WEYHH SOO LAZYYY!!!
WANNA WATCH SMURFSSS AWHHHHH/SMURFS DAMN KIUTTTTTT

Truth is, I am not coming back in 5 days nor have I had the time to go the cinema and watch the blue characters in action. However, I did study. So this Ferris-wheel-ride-of-a-semester better do me some good. I mean, I have to or it'll be a huge embarrassment to my self-esteem. Now ain't the time to flunk out of paper that asks you the most general basic thing on earth now would ya?

Haih, faster lah finish exam. Haven't been home for like 5 months and I already figured the first question they'd ask me.

"Kau potong rambut kah??".. Uh, nope I hid the rest of my hair at the back of my head.

Explain it to me

2011-08-26T16:39:00.002+08:00

Tell him to jump higher
Tell him to run farther
Make him measure up
Decades longer than you

Piece it together
It's like weather
Watch him travel
Kiss the gravel

Tell him to jump higher
Tell him to run farther
Make him measure up
Ten times longer than you ever should
You never could explain them to me

-LizPhair

Anything but ordinary

2011-08-25T21:23:00.008+08:00

Today everyone went back. The house is almost empty. No more laughing streaks at an inappropriate timing, no more sounds of annoying door hinges every 10 minutes. It's good tho' but it means that I am the only one in this boring old house and I wanna go back to KK!!!! Chill gurl, it wont be long now. Just gotta get through a few more weeks and home is where I'll be. Today marked the last day of lecture of our final week before exams. And yesterday I had no choice but to relentlessly sit through a 5 hour class basically just waiting to receive horrible coursework marks. Can't believe why I'm sayin this, but blame it on the tutor. Bitch gots some serious bipolar issues dangling on her pinky finger. Uggh. Bikin panas doh..But oh well, life ain't all sweet sugary coated candy.

Oh, and some old news to be post.Eventually I mustered all the confidence I had to cut off my locks :( You need to understand the sentiments that lie underneath this sudden decision. I had long locks for almost 10 years and now..now I have a bob cut. It's been a month so somewhere in between I found ways to work with it..although the vain-0-meter seems to be crashing rapidly. But with god willing, my hair no longer sits on the chin-length. It's really growing quite fast....I might be short haired for only 6 months. Max!! Haha

I shall now proceed to display my old beautiful hair. *shucks
Picture circa 2010 lol

2011 hair. Still chio mah right *blows trumpet

Thanks to my boyfriend who successfully persuaded me to chop my hair off. A change is always good nonetheless. Can't argue with that. But Love, this will be the last of my short hairy days. lol

Will blog more, as you can tell. It is the only companion.

Coffee

2011-08-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

I should be falling asleep, falling deep into my sweet reverie. But I had coffee, and instantaneous gut to have coffee at 12 midnite. So tell me, what other nonsensical thought would I be having tonight? I'm sure as hell won't be easily entranced by the sweet comforting voices in my head telling me to breathe in and out. Guess this is where I reopen an old chest full of keepsakes.

Does it still matter what I think? I somehow think it does.
If you get what I mean. But of course it wont.
There's a reason why they're keepsakes.

Goodnight. The heart shall drift off now.

Graduating Senior CSS Dinner

2011-08-22T01:11:00.006+08:00

Tonight was loads of crackling lawaks and tons of guling guling on the floor kinda incidents. As your newly elected secretary for CSS *ehemmm I can proudly debut my first report! Yay! So the dinner closed about an hour ago after a series of never ending photo sessions. I miss gatherings like these, kinda reminds me of high school gatherings and reunions which I like! Anyway moving on to the point, we were celebrating the seniors who'd be Graduating from UTP!! Wahh!! Somehow graduation always makes me happy inside although it is quite sad to be leaving friends and I guess, to leave UTP behind. After all, it's been like 5 years in that place. Not only the seniors came, but also to the super seniors! LOL super seniors cos they all graduate like long long time already~

The dinner wasn't at any fancy ballroom or whatever. It's at our very own Tudung Saji Restaurant!

Erize, Hoho and Nell being the receptionist :)

I got my lucky ticket! Grab 2 prizes sumore can!!!

Rozen with her uber stylo double LOVE ring and mega cuteness iPhone 4 cover!
p/s Ring was only RM5. Damn cheap and damn cute!!

My beloved loveee!!!

From what started as a sing-a-long from the seniors..it went to become...

...a sumazau fiestaaaa!!! Feeels like home. Borneo people were born to get any party righttt.

Ahemmm.. highlight of the game.

Mark and Claire. Same shirt weyh :p

Mark was awarded "THE MOST ACTIVE MEMBER".
Awesomeee congratsss Love!!

Schoolmates to Unimates to Coursemates.
Congrats and Good luck Edgar!!

Queen of the night and Eric's alter ego.

With Melissa, Rozen and Monica :)

Graduating Seniors!

Seniors and juniors collide

CSS FAMILY

And that's how we end a good night! See ya'll next semester!

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On a totallllllyyyyyyy more important thing today....

Today is my 20th monthsary!!
I love you Mark Dexter M. Tan!!! Here's to many many beautiful things coming our way.. <3

"We'll always be together, no matter how far it seems. We'll always be together, together in electric dreams."

Tap Tap

2011-08-18T17:04:00.004+08:00

Someone seems to be keen on an attempt to challenge my tap tap skills.
Can't deny it, girl' got some pretty serious swag.
#Like a bawsee..

Now that we've played all the song, I need to get the Tap Tap 4 Revenge!!!! So pleaseeee can someone tell me if Jailbreaking the Ipad2 is safe??!!

On a totally different side, I got this owl accessory for only RM5! And a RM7 owl ring which sadly was too big for me so I had to pass. Crazy cheap!

Takin a bite out of the apple

2011-08-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

I really wished I'd be able to blog more or at least get to rant crap after this. I don't wanna live my life without capturing the happy moments, especially with pictures or with words at least. What happened with my passion in photography? Where did it all dissipate into? I left it all to slowly vanish in my heart. I'd give anything to have all my passion back to me. I use to thought I'd have my own force field around..but I guess it was all in my head.

The semester is almost over, thank god :) Exam is in 2 weeks and Raya will be in a week. I won't be able to visit my cousin's in Papar this time and I won't be able to enjoy the rendang,ketupat,kuih and all the spicy delectables..Instead I get to spend it here in Residential Village 3. Quite depressing since there isn't much I can do in this place. Well, another reason for me to just concentrate on my studies. In a nutshell, this semester felt like a stroll in the park. Felt hella quick. Like I was somehow sucked in a swirl of clouds with electro-magnified force of nature. My boyfriend won't be coming back with me for the next semester.. This somehow reminded me of our long distance relationship which I despise so much back when I was a million miles away in a cold wintery weather.. It may be only 4 months apart, but a day without him feels like time passes so slow to torture me. I know all that crap and cliche things about one does not have to see each other everyday to stay in love.. It's not about that at all. I don't have problem staying happily in love with him, I'm having problems about not being able to feel complete and whole without the other half. Maybe I'm spoilt, maybe I rely too much..but it feels good to have someone to rely on all the time. It's like a safety jacket..but most of all, I love you..that's why :)

I get to chill with my family in KL few days ago and mommy bought me an Ipad 2. White color sumore!! It now matches my Macbook and my Ipod. Getting an Apple excites me so much even if I have no idea what to do with the Ipad other than the apps since I can't connect to the internet. But I will make full of it..thanks mummy, love mummy and daddy! I feel like a little girl all over again with gifts :)

So there you go, an update of my life in this little town called Tronoh. Nothing exciting nothing exclusive.. I am healthy and happy so yeah. Life is great.

Note to self, " Life is too short to dwell on all that's wrong. Gonna feel much better today". Thanks Neyo!

Glide

2011-07-27T21:33:00.001+08:00

Whoa, I am on the cover of Glide's sleek website :)

two places at once

2011-07-12T13:48:00.004+08:00

I've always wanted relive one of the moments in my ultimate favourite movie of all time..A walk to remember.

This here, is us standing on two places at once :)

Near the Border of Perak & Pahang

what's next? Umm, get a tattoo?

nonexistent break

2011-07-12T13:28:00.002+08:00

Why am I the one going through this useless midsem break?! Like who gives a 2 day break for a 5 month semester? I can't even begin to explain this fury..Well,nuff talking that's already behind and now let me be happy about my weekend to Hatyai together with UiTM Sri Iskandar for 4 days of shopping euphoria. I even made myself a list for all the pointless things am gonna be buying later, just to fill in the demands even if it won't ever touch it again. That's just how the pattern goes, see I bought 2 pairs of feather earrings from F21 which still never saw the sunlight, a baby blue mini dress which is still fitted nicely in the cupboard still waiting for it's time to be useful. Don't blame me, my cupboard may be full of clothes but still I ain't got nothing to wear. Ta~

midnite ramble

2011-06-30T23:03:00.003+08:00

Apparently, they thought we were making nests in the room. Uh hello, it's not like we don't get out, it's cos we're always out that you don't see us that often.

Aaand uh, keep it low when you decide to shout hysterically for no reason at all.

kthanksbai

A beautiful day

2011-06-25T22:10:00.010+08:00

My boyfriend's family came over today and I tagged along to the Le Tour Ipoh conducted by my bf himself hehee I was up and ready for the long exciting day ahead! When I woke up this morning my back was cranking up which is weird because the day before I had a 45 minutes jog so my legs should be the one that's hurting but instead I was having backache. Which makes me wonder, how the hell do I jog? Do I lean too much forward or does my head lead the run? I mean come on, am I one of those statistics where people just don't know how to jog?!

Anyhoooo...my Beby and I left utp around 10 and finally met them at the lobby about 11. Our first stop was the ever famous Foh San which I never knew about until now of course! Aunty&Uncle took so much food that they just kept it coming after each dish but none is wasted cos we everyone's a tanker I suppose :P Gosh it was sooo delishhh thank youu I was very very contented and full (:

Afterwards, we headed to Gua Tempurung for the Top of the World tour. The last time we took the Grand Tour which is more strenuous so I couldn't risk it being underwater. This time I took my BB with me but still pictures came out crapppy so yeah whatever.

I took this photo when we were at the first platform. Look how magnificent the entrance is...hauntingly beautiful..

Inside the cave..there's quite a lot of people on the tour. Making soo much noise...

Guess what this is......
This spooky dark depths is actually leading towards the underground river. I've passed this route and the staircase literally was 70degrees downwards. Imagine that..holding on to your dear life with the stair rails. But you gotta take the Grand Tour to pass here if not, this is the last platform for the easier tours.

Drove another 45 minutes to the famous Kellie's Castle in Batu Gajah. The story behind this majestic building is more or less the same as Taj Mahal. An undying love towards his wife thus the construction of the castle but the completion was cut short when he died in Portugal somewhere in 1905......but the spirits remain lingering around the castle as they claimed....

Our first photo in Kellie's Castle <3

This corridor was said to be haunted. The spirits of that man can be seen lingering around here...

Unfinished castle..

I like this picture (:

This is the Para Pad..a place where he could sit down and stare at his creation..

..and that's his sister at the top of the roof..OMG when I was up there I could not look down..

While I was up at the Para Pad..heavens goodness...

Going down the stairs was another ordeal hehe...we then had dinner at Lumut and went back to UTP..what a lovely weekend with the family...let there be many more wonderful events like these.. Thinking about it, I can't wait for Maya to come visit me. I miss Bambi Love so much..

Euphonious 2011

2011-06-23T23:47:00.009+08:00

Last Friday, I was co hosting an event in front 25oo UTP students for the very first time. Imagine the butterflies,the emotions acting up the second before you got on stage. I was literally shaking and I couldn't stand straight. I have never been in front of so many people before; plus I was a newbie and what if people hated the way I talk? What if they'd boo me on stage. What if I forgot my lines? I wasn't prepared to any of that. What if?.... but they didn't and I didn't. The minute I got out, it felt so amazing that I couldn't stop smiling and I just said what I had to say. Perhaps, I did good...for a new girl :D

I was the Publication and Promotional Committee and I was also the Grand Finale emcee..
Take that!! :P

Syahril & I opening the event.

Eupho 2011 Champions!! Voodoo Child with their sick ensemble. Loves it!

Sarah,Syahril,moi and Makki.

What a great way to celebrate my very first time. Maybe I'll join again next year. Who knows right.

Say something..

2011-06-09T17:05:00.003+08:00

Post an entry. Why does it sound so much like a memory? Has it been so long since I've had the urge to sit and let it all out even when there isn't much progress either way. As I gently press down the keyboard, I could feel the grim expression looking right at me. What makes it so damn hard for me to let it all out like I used to? It seems so easy once upon a time. Now it feels like every single words will somehow come back to haunt future me. I need to brush this off, maybe I'm being a tad bit serious. Ah.

Drama Festival 2011

2011-04-30T22:04:00.003+08:00

Last Thurs, I took part on the Drama Fest cos we got through the final round 3 weeks ago. Despite having to practice a week before the finals, we managed to win the Best Script award! Hahahah when I came to the venue I was pretty impressed that loads of people were really putting an effort to make the show a success. There were 8 performances but I could not stay longer for the final drama cos the next day was my test 2!! I didn't even study a bit and it was already midnite. But after getting back to the room, I got a text saying that we won an award. Awh that was nice :) Now that everything is over, I kinda miss all the fun and tiring nights practicing with my drama team :)

I miss being Roberting :P

The winner of the night. They managed to transform the hall into a club. I like thaaat XD

The Chaperon girls!
Good luck in your exams ladies, till we meet again!

Midnite ramble

2011-04-30T05:09:00.003+08:00

In less than a week, it’ll be war time. This is the only week where UTP doesn’t sleep at all. But before starting the one heck of a busy week, I decided to go on a date with my lovely boyfriend, my Mark and catch FAST 5 at TGV Kinta at midnite just now. Dudeeeee Paul Walker is still hot as hellll...but my darling is hotter in any way possible!!...And I gots ta say is I NEED A CAR IN TRONOH mannnn. Whatever car will do. I just need to be behind the wheel. Sucks to see people driving their own car. Can’t bring my Hyundai to UTP :( Arrived back at 4am and people are still having a stroll at the car park, the road sides and rooms are still bright. So I stayed up a while trying to blog like the good ol days but cant seem to find any inspiration at all. Oh well, roomie’s out in KL. I need to loosen up,I need to have my dose of happy hour. Smirnoff? Soon, 9th May PARTY IN THE HOUSE YA’LL.. lol lame attempt to sound cool.

Sooo it's 5 in the morning. Can't sleep. Might catch the sunrise in 2 hours but I doubt that I'd still be awake. Besides i cant figure out what to do when I get up at noon..

Thank you for a great date & dinner Beby Lovee!

♥

yeah kay

2011-04-25T01:05:00.002+08:00

Can't make my own decisions
or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up
so I don't go where you don't want me

You say that I been changing,
that I'm not just simply aging
Yeah how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

Towards the end

2011-04-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

When the night creeps in, I lay on bed, alone with my thoughts. Was I always destined for something so vague? So I close my eyes waiting for the giant nebulous glow hovering around me. Everything's a mystery aren't they. You welcome them in deep innocence and left with nothing but the sound of the wind.

3 more weeks...

2011-04-19T09:30:00.005+08:00

It is half past 9 and I am wide awake despite having to sleep at almost 2am due to those inconsiderable imbeciles that decides to transform into a wild hyena last night. I do not want to know what thing you people are laughing about but please lah..respect other people or I'll smash the door on your face just as I almost did but instead I smashed my own door but enough to make them stop. Hahah Maybe my tough attitude during PLKN camp channeled through till today. Aaaand yes I was at PLKN camp Teluk Rubiah, Manjung for the 3 days Team Building Camp and I loved it! Even before the camp started I was already quite psyched about it cause' who doesn't love flying fox, night walking and 6 meal times daily with all your homies sumore right?? Unfortunately tho' I couldn't take some pictures up there since they took all means of communication and valuable stuff. They were some photographers and luckily during the final montage, my face happens to appear quite a lot of times. Bahahaha.

The third day we departed back to good ol Tronoh and left with sweeet memoriess that will last till we all graduate... It was really something memorable and it taught us a lot about leadership and all those honorable attributes. Sometimes, you have to step out of your comfort zone or else you will never survive in this world. Just as the saying goes, "People who never made mistakes, never tried something new in their life"

Sorry Rozen ter-cut ur beautiful upper part of your face :P

My Sabahan Chicks!

The end of this week acknowledges the fact that there will be 1 more week of lecture. OMGGGGGG where the fuck did the time go? Exams are coming up in 3 weeks and I am partially ready...The good part tho is that....
I AM COMING HOME BABY!!!!!

relentless heat of the heart

2011-04-07T14:52:00.007+08:00

Classes have been canceled quite a number of times lately cos our lecturer seems to be busy in and out of the uni. So I'm left with nothing but a lazy ass and moronic broadband connection that doesn't seem to make any sense whatsoever. I mean seriously, I just got this about 2 weeks ago and already I received a message about how I've used up almost 3 gb which was the quota limit. Fucking serious piece of shit? Not only do you work 10 times slower than that other ridiculous wlan but know you're alerting me to pay up in advance for something that opens up Google after 5 minutes? Shit wei. I wont pay up $88 for nothing.

Gosh I don't know what switch to turn on for me to start studying. I know my subjects aren't that difficult if you compare to my previous subjects in UK, but I still can't find the will to focus lately. I have a lot of reading to do since I've took up Economics instead of Engineering. Even so, foundation subjects are the most basic yet so fucking boring to the core of that mr potato pack. I enjoy Business Studies cos it is literally just common sense and logic but dealing with the basics in Economics is errmm...don't know lah, the head refuses to understand. And yet I thought I could run away from Maths. Hahaha But whatever, I have a history of getting through calculus no matter what. You see, as bimbotic you may think I am, I still got A for Engineering Maths, albeit having no idea how I pulled that off. Pure luck? Ah I suppose. Oh well, that's the end of engineering subjects for me. Done deal!

In 3 weeks, I'll be sitting for my first exam. Nervous? Subconsciously perhaps. There isn't a doubt in my head that I can sail smoothly this semester. Nothing is impenetrable if you believe that you are capable of anything. Come one Gurl, it's just the first part :)

Tech Students are awesome-er!

♥

Baby I'm Back

2011-03-27T23:11:00.006+08:00

For the love of macaroni and cheese. I have now returned to the world of virtual reality where the sight of problematic pages are finally gone. Surviving almost 3 months without proper internet wasn't really that bad since this uni still bothered to provide us connection with snail power wlan sumore.Can't say I'm not grateful ok. But anyway I have forgotten the best of part of wanting to blog immediately after every event. I used to love sitting in the front of the screen blabbering to a machine that somewhat seems to be my loyal companion sans the heartbeat with every passing drama. Being 21 does not change a thing though, the drama still goes on.

Blah blah moving on to the good stuff cos I ain't gots no time for bedtime stories these days. Since its still considered as my birthday, it is appropriate for me to blog about how brand new I feel and how that spark is lighting up wanting to change me and resume last years resolution and all that but frankly, I don't have the urge to express my personal thoughts just yet. Today has been a tiring day travelling from KL back to Ipoh with a heat that seems to burn with every oppressive existence. Oh skin, have I abused you.

I have like 1256799 hours of class tomoz so I gotta hit the sack. But before that, as paying tribute to my blog tradition, I end this post with chio pictures of mah ladiess.

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Camwhore!!! I never camwhore already okkk hahaaha

Aand oh, My first birthday in UTP. I had a wonderful surprise from my boyfriend during friday prayer meeting along with the rest of the crew. It was touching!! (i never got a surprise cake before, T.T)
Thanks Hadryan for the pictures. Me loves it! Makaseh to my familylove who calls me gontua but fact is I'm still the baby. Muahahah! Alsooo not forgetting my bestie Audrey,Elsie,Sandra,Yot for the sweeeeet wishes. Miss you guys like a bazillion lots hehee... and to my lovely Amalina, for the most comel-est birthday song everrrr.Thanks girls!!

Last not but never the least to my one and only sayang, Mark Dexter Tan. Although my morning was a bit bitter and went sour towards the evening you managed to still add your own sweetener and my day an amazing one. I love you so much and this will make up all the 20 birthdays that you have missed. Finally on the 21st birthday, I get to spend it with you :)

Birthday girl with Mark,Sammy and Rozen :)
Love you guys alot bahh, mmmuah!!

A new beginning (:

2011-02-05T23:14:00.006+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!! Last Thursday marked the first day for the year of the rabbit. Let's welcome it with wide open heart and a clean slate. Time to make things better than it was a year ago.

I have spent Chinese New Year away from home several times. I was in Basingstoke,UK last year and all I remembered was the scrumptious delicacies at Nelly's house and the cold winter air. Coincidentally, this year's celebration was everything last year was not. I'm at Ipoh at the moment and the weather is scorching hot while good food was out of sight. The campus is empty,cafe's aren't opened and I have no car. But it's all okay though, there's only one thing I need for the new year..a piece of home. I got that right here where I wanted.

Seriously, there is nothing in Ipoh. Except for Jusco, Tesco and Ipoh Parade. Still it remains a million miles away from this secluded town called, Tronoh. Guess I'm still getting used to this place,the roads,the crazy neanderthal drivers and the searing heat which I find calming,believe it or not. Oh well, I'm not complaining!

I find myself, gradually liking where I'm at. For once, I didn't nag about how uncivilized the girls were on my dorm as I did when I was staying in Kuala Lumpur.The imagery of that disgusting wash room, gives me the creep. Fortunately, this UTP is blessed with people who knows what it means to clean up and practice proper hygiene. It sure does pay to be in a well respected institute.And did I tell you that this world is freakishly small? Here I was, back to basic with no one else but myself to depend on. Hell I was worried with the thought of not having to utilize my Sabahan accent but lucky for me, not only did I get a Sabahan roomate, she was also from the same capital as I was.What's more awesome was that she knew most of the people I knew. Even the one's I had a problem with it. Looks like there isn't much introduction I needed to do.

It's pretty late now, and I might be meeting up with my sister tomomorow so she can take me out for lunch. She has just arrived from Perth to KL last night so I'm pretty sure she has her schedule figured out. But I guess taking time out to spend an evening with me wouldn't be so much of a hassle! Till then, hope something mammothly amazing can happen to me just to stir up my mundane days.

Playing with fire.

2011-01-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

Is it me to blame
I really need to change
This pattern I'm seeing
I don't wanna be in

Why I gotta mess it up
And get it wrong
Like some kind of curse
Oooh

I keep on trying but I don't know how it works
There's no instruction so I keep on getting hurt
Over again, over again, over and over and over again

-Mutya

New Year

2011-01-02T21:43:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year everyone.
2011 celebration has swelled to a roar of fireworks and excitement. It's been a long tough journey in 2010 and came out of it aliveeeeeeee. I am overjoyed with the thought that this year might just be the time to exceed expectations and kick people's ass. To those who were there for me, cheers to ya'll and I love you guys a lot. To those who didn't, fuck you.

So here's to a wonderful beginning, a good life and a brand new self.

ridin

2010-11-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

Got my ride, hollaa~

ha ha maybe in my dreams.. =.= But what if my mom would wanna swap?

anyhoo thank youu mom&dad for such a cute car just like the driver!!Muahahha!!

before today

2010-11-02T22:05:00.001+08:00

Another day is ended
And i still can't sleep
Remembering my yesterdays
I begin to weep

If i could have it over
Live my life again
I wouldn't change a single day

I wish that i could turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to a stop
Back to the days when life was so much better

Lying here in silence
Picture in my hand
Of a boy i still resemble
But i no longer understand

And as the tears run freely
How i realize
They were the best years of my life

You might say it's just
A case of giving up, no
But without these memories where is the love
So where is the love

If i could have it over
Live my life again
I wouldn't change a single day

Why can't i turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to a stop
Back to the days
Oh no no
I remember when
Life was so good
I'd go back if i could
Oh oh i wouldn't change a single day
Don't let the memories slip away
I wouldn't change a single day
Don't let the memories slip away

Novemberrrr

2010-11-01T22:33:00.003+08:00

Holy smokesss,we're two months away from 2011?!!!! Another year has passed by without really giving us a chance to grant all our new year resolutions that's been put on hold. Truthfully, I believe we had 12 chances to start anew. Every first date of every month represents a new beginning and a new reason to become a better person that we know we can be. But why is it easier said than done? Sigh. Nonetheless,it's not too late for me to tick all the right boxes cos it's new year's resolution, Take 11 :)

Oh November..the first day has been a swell monday.I might be expecting another JiJi in hopefully a week or two..Jijininjs,Jijimarkxs,Jijiwirs and jijimyvs will have a little sister.
Trololololololol

THANK YOU ALL

2010-10-31T20:33:00.007+08:00

This weekend was a success. I wanna thank all my homies who came down and visited the Roupa Booth and left with a cute pink bag :))

The experience was more than I expected although there were some overly jealous OLD HOOKER infesting the walkway.
. Go and drown with you super funky taste lah aunty...Hahah!!!!!

Old aunty : This one ah (points at us) ,like UK style.Veli old fashion,downtown style ( wtf do u mean by downtown anyway?) My daughter ar all like to shop like Taiwan der,Hong Kong der...!

hahah..bah pigi lah bah hongkong liaooo tuu!!!

My partner, the lovely Roupa boss :)

We might collaborate again sometime in the future. Watch this space...

Thank you God for the blessing!

B.I.G

2010-10-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

"Believe me sweetie I got enough to feed the needy"

My Liese Bubble Hair

2010-10-05T15:56:00.004+08:00

I am indeed mindful of the fact I've just spent RM250 on hair coloring 3 months ago and yes I am still aware that because it turned hideously orange I wasted another RM45 coloring it back to red because my vanity was peaking at it's prime and here I am again with yet another hair damaging process that I just can never get enough of. There is no wonder if I ever get clumps of hair falling from my scalp. Just look at what am putting my goolooorious crown through each month.

But sadness be gone cos I kinda dig this new bubble thingy-ma-bop though it smelled like horse pee.Was more interested at the cute pink packaging rather than the product itself but I guess black roots is never a good sight when you have a conspicuous orangy reddish hair that just look really gloomy so I bought it...

My old hair color and my overly standardized smile.

The cassis berry color. It actually is a bit dark but the flash altered the colors. Looks pretty fine wasn't as vivid and bold as I wanted....

Since I was in the midst of a makeover I felt adventurous and so I cut my own fringe. I took off about 4 inches and 5 minutes later I stared at myself going, "..wat the fuck did I just do? "

Happy wednesday.

be scared.

2010-09-28T14:41:00.005+08:00

This is me all fluffed up and dolled to the max. I look harmless and immaculately innocent right...But when the dark comes, the freak in me comes alive..Waiting to get my feet of the ground and lose heads like it's all I'm allowed to do .....then.....

..I turn into one green bitch...
Don't mess!

trololololololololol.....!!!!!!
Halloween is coming....

Movie nite with myself

2010-09-27T18:15:00.009+08:00

Hujan lagi kahhhh? Malam nanti mau pegi main badminton,pastu I think gonna layan some movies pulak. Last nite around 12am suddenly nak watch ghost film, so check hard drive and the movies I copied from my bf, I found one, " Forget Me Not ". Another typical crappy American film I supposed? But at that time, boring mau mampus bah, tia tau mau di buat apa so tngok seja lah. Quite frankly, it entertained me for about 2 hours of cos with the pleasure of nibbling on

Sipping some,

Sucking on,

aaand having the NIGHT ALL BY MYSELFFFFF whilst texting my bf every second is all we could afford to do uwahhhhhh.... (i sound pathetically sad FML)

Somemore the main actress from Lizzie McGuire ok, the little blonde girl who was always so manipulative alongside Lizzie's lil brother? FUCK I FEEL OLD.
Tak ingat? Nvm, anyway patutlah rasa macam pena nampak cos familiar gilaaa wei. Bukan lah bilang pena jumpa although I do make it sound like we're old acquaintances bahahah But hey I bet you doo the same shit right! Hah!

The girl in this poster wasn't the main actress so dunno why she was featured here. Don't even remember if she was even in the film..Gotta warn ya, not one good looking guys are in this film.Total blah ness. The ladies on the other hand, blonde,tanned,slutty yeah same old same old.

Masa check trailer di youtube, gilaa I was like fuckety fuck apa barang hantu ni? I always knew Americans love putting those little bits of funny looking corpses at the ends just to be somewhat in par with Asian horror films. Have to say it was a bit creepy, I got chills at the end but it might be because it was already almost 2am...u know those sorta stuff that lurkes around midnite.
Anyhooo, not doing any type of review or whatever cos I takde masa nak tulis plus I wouldn't wanna spill spoiler on ya, aaaand I'm off to get some sexy arms. Ta~

inspired to look back

2010-09-23T19:14:00.007+08:00

Wondered where my weepy post went?Did you thought that finally I got it out from my head that life is a treasure and happiness isn't something that comes along like Polly did?

(..LOL tempted to just continue with FRET NO MORE, NOW YOU CAN WITH BLAH BLAH JUST CALL US AT...)

See,looking back at my older entries, it is like a poignant reminder of the passing of time. It was a slow phase and though I may want it to stay vivid in my thoughts, it was not something I wish to visit ever again. Sure it may not be as harsh as I'd describe it but that's how I am- I make spilled milk look like it's the most horrible thing in the world. I call it intensification not trying to aggravate a situation. Oh me, dwarfed by my own ideology. Can something please make its way to me and turn me into one happy go funking lucky girl. Time machine,PERHAPS?ANYONE? Le sigh. An out of body experience could be what I need for me to interrupt the ongoing cycle of a mundane state that I seem to always put myself in for no reason at all. Which brings us back to point numero uno, milk thing-a-ma-bop.

In other words, this photo perfectly translates the complete emotion.

you

2010-09-20T10:47:00.003+08:00

Apply,submit,wait for a call.And if I am shortlisted and things go as planned? Well, I guess I'll be seeing you everyday for the next few years.

Are you ready?

Goooodbye circle lenses :(

2010-09-15T22:54:00.011+08:00

After having to hear loads of rumours about the hidden dangers of circle lenses, I decided to finally stop purchasing them every freaking week like total lunatic and put those crazy lens to a halt. I admit I only wore them to have a much more enticing eyes,anime like set of eyes although it never really gave me comfort.NEVER. I was so obessed with having bigger eyes that I forgot the whole purpose of me having them on, which is to correct my eye sight. It all started a year ago when I first had them and I was addicted eversince. It's like I was possesed. I would get 3 colours in a month and have another type the next month. Remember my previous post about how I loved them? Well, that was then.

I wore them daily like I would with my normal lenses and it went on for a whole year. Gradually, I noticed something wrong with my eyes when I have my lens on for more than 2 hours. My eyes would be itchy,red and have eye mucus like there's no tommorow. FUCKING SERIOUS. I was like, what the fuck is wrong with my eyes?! I would wear my normal lenses for 6 hours straight during highschool and never have I had those FUCKING IRRITATING EYE MUCUS. Believing it was normal, I ignored the symptoms and continued using my coloured lenses until one day, (Ok this might sound vain) I came across a photo of me before my crazy lenses period began and thought I looked nicer with my real eye color. Eventually an ephiphany came, FTS. Fuck you circle lenses for depriving oxygen for my cornea's and scrathing my eyeballs. So I threw all 62357 pairs away and bought my good ol' clear Medivue lenses from England Optics and not even one infection occured. Upon putting the clear ones on, I was shocked to realize the vast difference in my vision. I don't care now if my pictures doesn't come out looking pretty anymore cos photoshop is always here to save my ugly photos. I can attain whatever eye size I want depending on the clicks I make :)

and now to end this post with an au-naturel eyes LOL

So becareful with what you put in your eye.Be extra cautious!

The Road Trip

2010-09-15T16:04:00.015+08:00

I get excited almost everytime when it comes to planning road trips. A day without strains and stresses of public life for a few days seems like a good way to spend such a minuscule fragments of the holidays. I wouldn't mind a long-ass drive journey especially when your surrounded by beautiful mountains throughout the whole 2 hours scenic route to Kundasang,Ranau. I mean seriously, who wouldn't be thrilled with the thought of that? Unless you're a 20 year old granny with a fanny pack then ok,maybe I can understand. My blog has not been updated on my whereabouts recently, it's always about some dilemma about somebody or me talking bullshit about another person and to sound even more weird, I only seem to have the urge to blog when I'm fueled with rage never happy nor excited. Hence, the barrage of irate posts. =.= Ok gonna stfu and post pics.

Wah! why look like got nobody driving the car?!

..the passenger seat also the same?! awesome!! LOL

...Mount Kinabalu from afar, I will conquer you this December...if i don't chicken out lah.

Nabalu Town

My Love :)

The best part of the ride, I have to say was the standing behind Leo's Frontier eating out the misty breezy air of Kundasang like the good old days. It must be 10 years ago since I last had that experience...

Somehow the snakey trail led us to the hiking entrance towards Mount Kinabalu and we were greeted by this little creatures that looks half rat half squirrel!

Foot shot, a must have in every trip. My electric blue sneakers is so..umh electric lol.

The girls. It was a cold afternoon, a lovely air indeed~

Afterwards, we headed to the memorial park and it was blaaazing hot. Dunno why I still had the sweater on. Anyhoo, I've never been to this park before although having been to Kundasang countless times before.

Day 2, had a super early "amercian' breakfast at 7am which consist of telur,sosej and roti paun.Hahaha...whatever tho it still filled my tummy.

..At the lodges, they had this garden that looked really whimsical to me. But I was too lazy that morning to even walk down that stair.

The next day was supposed to be our second day out of the 3 day trip we planned but under certain circumstances we had to cut it short and left to KK that evening..we still had a few places to visit but maybe next time when the time is right. Thus, destination was only at two places, Sungai Tagal & Poring!! Didn't really took much photos cos I was too stingy to pay RM10 for camera usage.

They tickleeee like mad ok

Poringgggg!

It had only been 10 minutes of walking and I already managed to pull a I've-been-hiking-for-3 hours-straight-need-water-oxygen-nao look.

Footage from the canopy walk. I do not wish to cross that bridge again. I don't even trust the safety by the looks of it!!!! Oh my dear life was literally hangin on a thread, however the view was breathtaking. Sadly I did not had the time to stop and stare at mother nature cos I was busy saving my life lol

Highlight of the day, mini waterfallssssss... OMG the water was fucking cold but it was fucking awesome. I've never taken a dip surrounded by hugeee bulky trees that could be a million years old with glowing blue butterflies around it sumore! Magical enough anot?

Haha managed to persuade Russell into the deep icy cold water.

I wish we stayed longer there but we had the hot spring tub to go to again..which was boring and it had no excitement at all...... Left Ranau in the evening and headed back to plain old KK and came home utterly depressed bahahaha..

Now on to the next one!
Let's start the countdown!!!!

Pretty vacant

2010-09-08T23:21:00.006+08:00

Every night, I fall deep into a sweet reverie. The time where my thoughts roams free,allowing myself to discover a whole realm of endless possibilities and devouring the beauty of being unconfined. Eventually traversing across another dream until my soul awakens to reality. The real life where my thoughts are determined by the people around me. I wish I knew how to free my mind from my own mental slavery but unfortunately I am held captive in my head. Haiz, why am I so distressed all the time? It feels as though my worries won't ever have a solution and I would forever become this wretched self. I do feel like I'm deteriorating each day whether by mind,body and soul. As the saying goes, you don't have to learn how to control your thoughts,you just have to stop letting them comtrol you.

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

2010-09-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

Show encrypted text

2010-08-27T19:31:00.003+08:00

Face done for any night outs.You tube gurus you are to blame! haha

high

2010-08-22T17:34:00.003+08:00

I need to crash and burn, I need to bring about a change. It's all subsiding now. Sooner or later I'll be gone. But close your eyes, remember to let me be regardless of what you think will happen. I don't know if it's the best decision for me, but guess what? Neither do you. So let me be. What's the worst thing that could happen to you?It's my life we're talking about,no?

sweet misery

2010-08-10T23:04:00.004+08:00

I am a redundant matter lingering on earth and no longer feels her presence is relevant to the world. I couldn't dawdle over my life anymore it is too energy consuming plus I feel an imbalance of emotions transpired. What could this suggest about me-A futile human? A flashback of what I have been through a year ago? Oh gawd no, not that mental wreck-ness phase of my life again. Want me to die is it?? Whatever was the cause that made it all possible,I wish to stay away inside out. Although, being miserable always seems inevitable to me these past few years. Give it a good few year lidis, I'd be a miserable old woman.Confirm.

I kinda miss the fact that blogging and photo-blogging used to mean more than just an online frenzy. I wasn't able to fully articulate my thoughts and emotions thus I made the pictures justify what I felt,manifesting my feelings and sentiments through colors and pixels hoping that others would somehow have an inkling of what I was visualizing-though I doubt I had any wise thoughts or readers for that matter FML. Anyhoo, updating random posts and photos was always something I looked forward doing regardless if it was something totally casual or an important event that needed to be blogged about.

Now that I think about it, my blogs have been inundated with childish rants and prolonged misery stories that neither I could understand why I had to be so mundane and full of anguish in every post. It's crazy I tell you because my life isn't bad at all when you look at it at a different angle,perhaps the way I always saw myself was a reflection through a cracked mirror. Something that was once so perfect but shattered somewhere between the lines. Kinda bull'.

So what do I want? What do you wanna do? Where am I going? Questions,questions hovering above me. I do wish sometimes people would just zip their mouth and just chill for one second. Is that all that seems to matter to people now? If you really want my honest answer,i'mma tell you this. "I don't know what the fuck I want nor do I know where the fuck I am going because seriously, who the fuck knows?" Just be happy lah knowing I am not a wandering teenager and wasting my life away. FYL You all make when,why,who,what so damn annoying to listen to anymore.

And what happen to my vanity? I seem to lost all urges to look and feel pretty and good too. My hair is a mess,my bangs doesn't seem to wanna part other than the right side, my hair color is a weird out color that went wrong obviously due to me refusing to accept the color orange as an OKAY color for a hair. I swore I pointed the color burgundy at the salon while I was getting consulted. Not a stupid orange hair. Thanks to all this, I am now currently on my way to having a receding hairline by 20, bald by 21. Utter bliss.

Now you all can leave this blog with gloominess that I have been sharing here because I am done being a pessimist for tonight.

like i care

2010-08-09T23:10:00.004+08:00

I wouldn't bat an eyelash even if you claim for me to be somebody different.All your little attention seeking scheme only makes you look ridiculously dumb, are you really that lonely desperate man who sits in front of the computer obsessively re-updating your thoughts to a machine with hopes of gaining pity just so a slap of dirt would hit my face? You created your own little drama because you are so engulfed with your vain attempt that finally took a toll on what we once called friends. So take your pretentious self to the grave you dug for yourself.

fyi

2010-08-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

Tooooo juicy :)

2010-07-31T21:39:00.003+08:00

Mum got these today. Not authentic but so what it's tooo fucking cuteeeeeeee!!!!!!! Juicy Couture should open up a store in KK. We need a lil bit of girlyfication going on in this town man ;P

Let's just fall in love again :)

2010-07-29T23:52:00.003+08:00

Somehow I googled, "Jonas Brothers- Fall in love again" today and was kinda mindfucked knowing it was Jason Castro who sang it! I love that dude from AI okay! And I loveeee that new song! It's like an instantaneous feel good lovey dovey song meant for you and that special half. Ahh, cheesyness is what I need to fill in the voids in my so called ho-hum life :)

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

memories

2010-07-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

As the years passes me by, I can't help but to ask myself a simple question. Why won't time stop for me or anything for that matter? Why can't I keep time with me and be in the moment for as long as this heart beats? Why must time shatter the better days of my life,ripping away my greatest elation that dwells within me? I could go on for eternity and I could never immortalize time.

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait?

Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Cause you know
You know,you know

That I love you, I have loved you all along
And I miss you, been far away for far too long

This song used to mean something to me. . Well time makes everything turns to "used to" sooner or later along the way. I regret nothing though, instead I breathe easy watching the memories dematerialize ~

where d hell is ur fb ar???

2010-07-26T18:16:00.001+08:00

gone lah.lazy dy lah wanna update those stuff..

randoom

heaven on earth

2010-07-25T20:19:00.007+08:00

i miss the littlest thing about you.

Thank goooodnessss we're not at a different time zone anymore, less distance is more like it. Oh LDR how I loathe you with a passion. Get the fuck away alreadyyyy!!!

So July has come and gone,leaving us behind with nothing but a memory. A sweet,wild and undeniably crazy ass memories to last forever and ever filling in the voids that once existed in my life. All I needed was a kick to the soul to finally be more conscious of the moment and not having to fret about how the past/future would turn out to be.
CARPE DIEM~And if not now, when?

I love Kaskade. So much that every song fills me up literally,condensing the emotions within the beat. Here I am gives summarizes the heart that I hold.I just love it lah.

so say goodbye

2010-07-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

4 weeks was all I needed to realize how much bull and gibber that thing-a-ma-bob does to me. I tried logging in hoping to have maybe- missed those browsing,liking and commenting stuff but boy was I wrong. I hated being there. Maybe 2 years was enough, I'm gonna try to refrain myself from wasting too many time on those pesky social networking sites.......and do more tumblr stuff instead LOL kthxbai

timeeeee...

2010-07-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh.It's been 3 weeks since I left? Why must time fly in seconds when I'm having fun? FML I hate that stupid illogical theory. Whoever fucking made that shit up surely mind set my head hence believing every hours are in mere seconds.I'm not leaving this town just yet so you'll see my face everywhere in KK, but at the other hand my Love is leaving soon and here goes the 6 months countdown yet again. FML I know now how easy life is without the urge to look up to the internet. 3 weeks without Facebook is bliss. Having thoughts whether to delete it but I have to consider the fact that it is the reason to why I still keep in touch with my other friends.

Another episode filled with dramatic pretentious jerks are finally receding. I could tell people are starting to hate me. Oh well, I can't please everyone. Like they say pleasure is on the other side and I'm on my way making things right. I've always thought the mistakes I've done messed up my life but to be honest it's what life is all about,to make mistakes and not be afraid to fall and hit the ground. I still hope that someday I'll do something that's finally right without any ounce of selfishness to it. Till then, I just do what I gotta do.

When I was younger all I needed was money. Now that I'm older all I need is time.

lol. saw u in Michelle's FS wall. hehehehehe

2010-07-13T15:59:00.001+08:00

Hahhahaha.... I just checked..forgot she replied lol... bah, she wanna come to malaysia dy that hehe

randoom

Which is worse, throwing up after the rollercoaster ride or binge booze? it's gross but I'm curious. LOL

2010-07-11T11:48:00.001+08:00

I dont find binging on booze gross!! So i'mma go with throwing up ur insides after a crazy ass rollercoaster ride.

randoom

2010-07-07T19:03:00.003+08:00

No time for blogs. No time for Facebook. No time for internet. No time for computers.
This is what happens, when I have a life.

2010-07-03T17:02:00.003+08:00

All I wanted to say was stop it. Stop that fucking annoying cryptic statuses and messages. Don't go hatin' just cos you can't get what you want. I was fine moving along excepting that you'll always be the way you are. But now I am sick of it. All of it.

the aftermath

2010-06-28T06:32:00.003+08:00

I am knackered,tired,worn out,weary,penat dan segala-gala lah. Thorpe park was aaaamazing,nuff said.10 hours of total madness and with the blazing heat is enough to make you not wanna get up or move from the bed. My body felt like it's gonna crack anytime now. I'd probably make a post about it and show ya'll my SAW ride video.Fucking funneh ok.Anyhoo, I'm off now. 16 hours we meet again :) Au Revoir London!!! Memories will forever live with you and I.

FTS

2010-06-25T01:47:00.006+08:00

The day feels so lethargic today that the thought of snuggling with your arm pillow is way more exciting than going out to the blazing heat. Okay,you must think I am contradicting myself,first I swear by the word hot,heat and summer and now I am all, " ahh panasss "... Don't judge me yet, I love the heat that's why I'm staying in bed all day long :) Being a sluggish sloth is what I do best,haven't you heard yet? Anyhoo,counting down the days now till Thorpe Park and seriously I can only conversate something that has to do with going to Thorpe Park, it's all I think about, it's all I breathe about. Mannnn I'm gonna smother you guys with my "OMG when I went to that ride..." until everybody gets sick with it and someone decides to smack the shit outta me. I can't make up my mind whether to have Indian or Italian. I'm supposed to be on a mega strict diet but tonite is an exception. No rice for 3 weeks? FTS!! I'm eating.

On the other hand, I have a lil something to say~

Just because you're together, doesn't mean you're meant to be together. Just because she is in love, doesn't mean you are too. If you don't know, it clearly tells that you don't care. I may not be wise for I am still the same hormonal driven teenager, but it's not rocket science to know whether you are in love with her or not. So, don't screw your life up just because you don't want her to get hurt, cause seriously? You're hurting her as the stories you're letting me know.

- Goodluck

It's time for the ride of my life

2010-06-24T18:03:00.005+08:00

This Saturday..I will be heading off to Chertsey, Surrey UK for the ultimate ride of my life.
FUCKETY FUCK! THIS TIME FOR THORPE PARK!!

How massive is this place anyway?!

Can't say that I am absolutely fearless or such height does not frighten the living daylights out of me, its just the adrenaline rush,the thrill of letting your body and mind let loose seems to be an ideal way to spend £39 on! LOL

I've always loved going on thrill rides, the higher the better but you see the last time I went to a theme park was in Hong Kong and I was like 13 and you'd still be having the "No kids aren't allowed it is too scary!!" Well fuck yeah I aint a kid no more.

How do I contain myself till Saturday?! I am tooooo excited!!!!
I FUCKING LOVE ROLLER COASTERSS!!!

Fuckin looking forward to Stealth. Holy Guocemoleyyyy!!!

Owh, sumore we get to get in to the SAW ALIVE room with not just live actions & actors but finally I get to meet the weirdest puppet doll ever,

hello you!

Don't tell me this pictures doesn't make you wanna piss a poop.

Ok lah ok lah, I stop now! Too many pictures to even wanna upload. But haiz, sad thing is I wont be bringing along my camera cos it's too riskyyy...What if it slip then hit some random guy's head. Hm, not good right.

tick tock

2010-06-24T03:11:00.000+08:00

Not long now.. :)

im goinnnn in

2010-06-21T01:01:00.004+08:00

21st of June marks the first week of freeedom
Someone's coming home :)

@ Saxon Mill, Warwickshire

who u support fifa?

2010-06-17T18:23:00.001+08:00

England!

Mmkay

my sunshine

2010-06-10T07:41:00.004+08:00

6 months has come and gone.I told you it won't be long ;)

24 days to go till my hearts beats a little bit faster than usual.
24 days to go till I get to wake up knowing that we're not a world apart anymore.
24 days to go till I get to hear you're silly laugh.
24 days to go till I get to be with you.
24 days till I get to see you Babe!

Let's go!

2010-06-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

Aja aja hwaiting gurl ^^

Shakespeare's hometown

2010-06-07T03:32:00.008+08:00

Another continuation from my long weekend gateway post, destination? Stratford Upon Avon, A beautiful rural countryside which is just in the south of Warwickshire not to further away from where I was staying. When I woke up that morning after Oxford, it was drizzling,cold and it just wasn't as inviting as it was yesterday. Hence I didn't felt urged to dress up and get psyched for today's agenda. After about 30 minutes drive we eventually arrived at the town center or famously known as the birthplace of William Shakespeare. To be honest I had no idea the place that I was now in was a tourist attraction that gets more than 3 million visitors every year. With that one fact, I felt all excited up again to spend my day indulging somewhere steeped in culture and history. I was instantly enlivened by the series of stunning old English architecture and the wonderful panoramic view of the countryside. Kinda makes me wanna let go of the fixation I have with city life :)

Just look at the little English details. It really made the town unique on its own.

Shakespeare's Birthplace. It's a now a museum open for us visitors.

A very interesting dance performed by the locals along the riverside. What a distinctive costume.

Streets of Stratford upon Avon

Me outside a local souvenir shop.

I had the chance to see the burial grave of William Shakespeare in the Holy Trinity Church. A beautiful church although not so massive, I still had an awe moment.

Even though we only managed to cover the town area, I still felt like I've seen a piece of Stratford that was truly beautiful and even having the chance to step foot into experiencing another side of England was already enough for me. I'd looove to come back soon and maybe this time have the opportunity to watch a theater at the Shakespeare's Theater Hall.

Where's your favorite place to buy clothes?

2010-06-03T15:41:00.003+08:00

Asos, H&M, River Island

Mmkay

Would you rather vacation at the beach or in the mountains?

2010-06-03T15:41:00.001+08:00

Im a beach person. West coast here we go.

Mmkay

A day in Oxford

2010-06-02T06:51:00.009+08:00

Welcome to the wonderful world of Oxfordshire, England. A place where everything is fueled by the immense aura from fountain of wisdom and where pedestrians are dressed like those people you would normally catch at the magazines for having such elegant yet fresh and vibrant style. I think I still have the Oxford bug, hence the attempt to sound intelligent and all. But that was what I experienced last weekend with Raymond and in a nutshell, I was highly fascinated straight from top to bottom. Not only was the city center a breathe of fresh air with such outstanding architectural history and away from the hassle of the city but, the view along the way was absolutely breathtaking. I wouldn't mind being stuck in a car for hoursss when you can enjoy a terrain of beautiful greenery.

One of the entrance to Oxford University.

One of the buildings for Oxford Uni's.

I am in dire need of these shoes..

It was a short visit but it was definitely worth it. I've a few more Midland post to write so I better continue while I still have the mood to do it or else it'll just end up in the draft like my Barcelona post. Soo lazy meee.

away for the weekend

2010-05-29T07:57:00.003+08:00

Yayy it's gonna be a wonderful day for me as I will be tagging along to Warwick, Oxford and Stafford for the weekend. We've already visited Oxford University and the city centre and seriously, it is a 360º difference to London. People there are more quirky yet super fashionable with a lil bit of an edge and the architecture is another story. Everything just has this sorta Victorian flair to it which is uber cool. Hopefully tomo will be yet another sunny day since we're going to visit Warwick Castle and fingerssss crossseddddddd that I get the opportunity to horse ride this Monday. Thats all lah, kthanksbai.

the big farewell

2010-05-28T03:14:00.012+08:00

The enthusiastically anticipated weekend is now over. Such a sappy moment considering this acknowledges the final few days for the Grahams and also a new beginning in the land below the wind, SABAH baby! The night was immensely pouring with every little awesome things you can ever think of. Not only was the weather fucking gorgeous being all warm and all, the place in Tayyabs & Big Chill Bar itself was amazing. Not forgetting the after party at Chaz's rooftop in Shoreditch although I could barely remember the whole night. Nonetheless, it was a wicked send off, I could do it all over again :P

On our way, the ladies all looking chio lol

@ Tayyabs

Now, don't tell me you're not salivating by the look of this.Haiyah how lah wanna lose weight lidis?

Holy cow!

Chomping down em Kebabs :p

Afterwards, lounging at The Big Chill Bar, Shoreditch. Love the atmosphere and the people.

Dancing the night away with the sounds of Ska to Dubstep :)))
I was so fucking excited when Major Lazer was on.
POD DE FLOOR!!

We took off about 1am and thought of heading to next club only to find it was £10 per entry.Bullocks.

Surprisingly enough, despite feeling all heady and sublime. I was still being fairly sensible with my phone knowing that I could text my Bf as rational as possible hehehe I promised you I'd be baby.

Oh and on our way, this picture was at some wall along with some cool artsy graffities.
Can you guess what it is?

A vajayjay with a baby peeking through then the clit got piercing somemore ok.WTF? I know I do not possess Picassoesque thinking but was I supposed to have an exploratory mind to figure the cryptic meaning behind this? I dont know seems just too weird lah.

About 2am later in the morning, I was already 60% gone. All I cared was that I needed some fucking clothes because it was bloody chilly. So to stay warm, I just sat at the fucking ice cold tiles. Not a good idea. Heard they give you piles. FML

Overall, the night was indeed something to remember. Everyone was cool and we all had one hell of a fucking memories to remind us how awesome we all can be if we want it to be.

So, Goodbye London. I have another 4 weeks with you.
Let's make memories together.

Forever.

But baby, we'll be together soon.I love you.

2010-05-27T18:58:00.001+08:00

are u an angry person..??

2010-05-27T18:36:00.001+08:00

no, jz dont fuck with me

something funny,can?

amoi bila balik kk ?...

2010-05-26T18:00:00.001+08:00

1 bulan lagi!!

something funny,can?

yo kurt or artie ?

2010-05-25T04:18:00.001+08:00

Kurt. Who doesn't love a guy whose as obsessed with you for all the cheesy stuff :p

something funny,can?

care to share any good musics on your playlist? :D

2010-05-19T20:56:00.001+08:00

sure:) i cnt stereotype d type of music i listen to but some of my faves are..

Hell is round the corner - Tricky & Portishead
Pass out - Tinie Tempah
Pod de floor - Major Lazer
Fluorescents Adoloscents - Arctic Monkeys
Here I am - Kaskade
I remember - Deadmau5
Riverside - Sydney Samson

=D

something funny,can?

what hairstyle you wanted to try but don't dare?

2010-05-19T15:52:00.001+08:00

Shave the sides of my hair..

something funny,can?

Leaving do' in London

2010-05-19T02:21:00.010+08:00

The last weekend was BELGO weekend!! Twas Laura,Maya & Stu's leaving do dinner and all friends and family from all over the UK came down to London to join this wonderful farewell gathering that I have been anticipating since like weeks ago. Who doesn't look forward to good food and great company from the people who matters, right? Plus, it ain't everynite you get to go out and have some fun night out in London city!

The past few days, I've noticed that I haven't been rocking that watermelon look anymore. I was like so mad happy to see my weight slowly reaching towards normality like fucking finally. Although I'm absolutely sure I'mma gain back some of it this weekend. When the party truly starts :)

Raymond & Lomomo.

During our tube ride, there were like hundreds of Chelsea fans near Wembley for their match against Portsmouth and it delayed us for about 15 minutes =.=

Arrived at Covent Garden and we were ushered to our table which was under this underground tunnel-like room. It felt very vintage like old or something from the past like that. The whole atmosphere was awesome!

Cheeeersss & Aramaiiiii tiiiiiii

I felt a bit heady after only 3 glasses of wine.

Despite having such incredible set of appetizing lobsters and succulent Provencale mussels, desserts was still the highlight of the night. Dame Noir chocolate cheesecakes and Belgian Waffles. Even spelling the names out is making me drooooool.

Miss Henna loving those geek chic glasses!

The Kadazan clan in UK. Surely gonna miss them with their kuhrazieness.

Tassia,moi & Henna

The room also had some built in light bulbs on the floor. As you can see, I was somehow intrigued thus decided to pose all sultry and stuff.

April, Vicky & Lora

STAR OF THE NIGHT.

Posed in Picadilly Circus with Tassia & Raymond.

We went back straight after dinner but us 3 stayed up chit-chatting and massaging till half past 3 in the morning! Macam2 lah buli cerita kalo suda berjumpa :))
The next morning, we headed off to the gym for some sauna session and jacuzzi session too.

David Lloyd health and fitness club in Hayes. Super huge oh.

This coming week will be another farewell do at Tayyabs and Big Chill Bar in Aldgate, London.
I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT!
More photos soon!! Kthanksbaii!!

Should I go for Miss "World" or should I go for Miss "I Cherish you since forever"?

2010-05-15T00:57:00.001+08:00

I'd say, screw the inner beauty shit and opt for the ones that satisfies the eyes..HAHA..I'm kidding mate, go for the one that gives u such a monumental happiness that everytime u think of her, your heart skips a beat. ^^

amuse me

If you could hv a penis and a vagina which do you pick?

2010-05-15T00:47:00.001+08:00

hv a penis. I wanna know what its like to be a willy wanka. HAHAHAHAAHHA

amuse me

Am I allowed to follow you or is there some sort of restraining order? XD

2010-05-15T00:16:00.001+08:00

Yayyyyy!!! Glad to see ya here yot my dearr ^^

amuse me

I make your jeans vibrate like a Nokia~

2010-05-14T05:35:00.005+08:00

We got bit too carried away this song. Super Loves it!!! Feel so energized even just with the first beat and also, I think the blast from the past has finally been put to a halt. So I hope it stays that way. On the other hand especially for HER, you EXPIRED little twat- I'll never ever ever like you and fcuk that shit about me being judgmental and stuff.

Dinner partiessss this weekend. Wootssss!!